So why must i return to school for CCA on my birthday?!
I hate that. @.@
Cant i just celebrate my birthday peacefully.
& yesterday reading rachy's blog made me feel miserable.
Seeing how she miss her friend.
I started to miss mine too(:

& yes today :: another slacking day.
I just want to fly off to HongKong right now.
to be able to shop.
Seriously, i need to bring lots of cash. =))
A WHOLE LIST OF THINGS I NEED TO BUY! XD
I am sure i will be burning a hole in my dad's pocket.
hehe. (:
he wont mind ;; i think. ~grinning~

Christmas is coming.
I waited for it patiently for one year.
Finally, its coming.
My favourite day.
Maybe i love<3 christmas due to the fact of my birthday.
which is just around it.
& maybe i love<3 christmas.
cause it suits my personality?? >.<

Its not Mood swings.
Its Me(:
Just the girl :: Me!<3
After that long, i just realize that it was not because of mood swings.
It was Me.
Theres two of me.
It might seems so confusing but its the truth.
On the surface i might be a FUN person.
Yet, whenever i am alone ;; like Now.
I change.
In truth, I am a COLD person.

I cant smile.
I cant laugh.
I cant talk.

I just simply think.
I dont know why.
I just feel so depressed.
Without any reason.
Maybe because of last year.
THAT incident.
Yes, it should be.
That cold personality of mine came up few days after that day.
I dont want to mention it anymore.
it just torn up my heart.

Cheryl should know what i am talking about.
I feel like breaking down right now.
I really cant understand myself.

I have NO goal.
I have NO dreams.
I have NO hopes.

I really feel like crying.
Please dont laugh at me.
It took me real courage to even post this out...
Thank you.

~Heartbroken: its not just a word. It has true meaning. Ever experience before. Your own believe heartbroke or the true heartbroken?!
Your own believe heartbroken: Your mind breaks down. You feel like crying. Thought that your heart has torn into pieces. The true heartbroken: Your heart aches very painfully. You gasp for air unable to breathe. & your tears started dripping down.

~Goodbye! signing off : jolene-